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21 July 2011 @ 12:10 am
 well, i've had sex again. once on sunday, and 7 times today. yuck. 
i started dating this guy, he's gay but i somehow slipped through the cracks. i think i've broken all of my rules with him. had sex without  condoms twice, and am strangely  ok with this.... 
19 August 2010 @ 10:44 am
oh god.

don't ususally have dreams, but i had the craziest last night. will write about it later if it hasn't slipped my mind, but i'm at work at the moment.
29 July 2009 @ 08:55 pm

so when i am on birth control, all sex drive diminishes.  so does the want to be with someone. 

i have been on 2 different ones.   now i have this new one, and instead of doing what it's "SUPPOSED" to do, it does the opposite. 

so now.. i have been a huge hornball.  every second of every day, all i am thinking about is sex.  and i started the pills on sunday.  so it's only been..... 4 days so far, but UGH WHAT THE FUCK. 

and of course i can't get laid for obvious reasons. 

sooo... i am just really really really angry now. 

the end. 
10 April 2009 @ 09:55 pm
welllllll......i have been dating john for a short while, and it has been a total disaster. we argue every day, about the stupidest shit ever. like... the other day we argued about a muffin. anyway, it's bad news. we are definitely the best of friedsand that is why we are still bffs at the end of the a, but it is one huge and gnarly mess.

uuugghh terrible
john and i have been dating for about.. a month and a half now. he's a virgin, so i don't want to push him into anything that he isn't ready for.
i WAS planning on just waiting until he mentioned doing anything, but i guess my sexual frustration got the better of me. -_______-
but i found out that he moves at my pace, and i move at his, so basically, we got stuck at a rut, so... sexual frustration go!~ take over and initiate rape in 3....2....1.
so.. today, we had some make outy and touchy times. fine. then... i started touching him through his pants, which seemed fine. then asked if i could unbutton his pants. there wa ssome feeling around, nothing really done, and he stuck his hand down mine. he told me he didn't know what he was doing and apologized. i just laughed, since i do find it genuinely funny.
i ended up letting him feel around, and he found my clit on the first try after finding my vagina- like that slimy, oozy thing is hard to find at all.

he has the softest touch ever.
i HATE having my stuff touched in any way. i hate it when my nipples are touched in any way. i hate when people touch my abdomen area, especially around my belly button. i fucking HATE having my clit or anus touched. basically, that leaves my vagina, which i'm still pretty 'eh' about but it's all that's left, really. pretty sad, isn't it? though i do like intercourse :o

but... yeah. he found it, and i didn't say anything. i didn't have a problem at all. and.. i liked it. i guess some people just don't know how to be gentle? or... touch at all? and i do think it's because he's nervous and scared, otherwise he wouldn't be so gentle, but it was awesome. i really liked it.

but then my mom called. so.... everything came to a halt, and after the phone call, we just laid around for the rest of the time.
18 December 2008 @ 05:49 pm

there you have it. my underwear, on your friends page.

in  other news, i have never been so aroused by someone in my life. i thought i was having my period, which had just ended a few days before. we didn't even do anything except for cuddle. i think it might just be because it's been a while. so.. whatever since i don't have much desire to do anything else right now. the end.
22 August 2008 @ 03:20 pm
 holy fucking shit. i hate cole. 

this post was not sex related. sorry?

i think i shall be celibate for a while. :3
23 April 2008 @ 01:56 pm
 hellooooo.. yet not really. 

i'm bored ._.

so.. i have this like "no masturbating" rule policy thing not really but yes but no? and sometimes i'm like, "hmmm, sex would be mighty cool." at the same time, i don't like.. do things with people unless we are dating/comitted relationship shindig. butt... i don't want to date anyone. so.. i'm pretty much right back where i started when i was on my merry way to college. but then i ended up dating anyway :-/

difference between then and now? then, i never wanted to be in a relationship ever again (ohhhh exagerration- just for a very long time..) i didn't want to have sex ever again (not exaggeration). now.. it's like.. i don't want to be in relationshippings, but i has sex needs. boo ._. i think i need to be like.. raped but not so i never want to have sex ever again like before. after much compare and contrast betweeen the "thens" and "nows" it's like... ex ex BF did the thing of.. 
"wanna have sex?"
"no..not today... " 

ex bf, ie. cole *waves* hi cole. 
... did not do that. ever. 

so... maybe that's why. i dunno.
12 February 2008 @ 08:11 pm
i have been nudged. -_-

not that i totally forgot about this journal, but i got nothing. :-/ 


nya >:P
07 November 2007 @ 09:57 am
 visited cole yesterday and teh day before yesterday. i really need to remember to take pictures of his dorm. 

i got sexytiems. :33333 then cried. cole wanted to pick my nose too ;; 

then i gave cole some lotion to masturbate with. yes. and......cuddles. it was so nice. 

other than the nose picking part. >_>