john and i have been dating for about.. a month and a half now. he's a virgin, so i don't want to push him into anything that he isn't ready for.
i WAS planning on just waiting until he mentioned doing anything, but i guess my sexual frustration got the better of me. -_______-
but i found out that he moves at my pace, and i move at his, so basically, we got stuck at a rut, so... sexual frustration go!~ take over and initiate rape in 3....2....1.
so.. today, we had some make outy and touchy times. fine. then... i started touching him through his pants, which seemed fine. then asked if i could unbutton his pants. there wa ssome feeling around, nothing really done, and he stuck his hand down mine. he told me he didn't know what he was doing and apologized. i just laughed, since i do find it genuinely funny.
i ended up letting him feel around, and he found my clit on the first try after finding my vagina- like that slimy, oozy thing is hard to find at all.
he has the softest touch ever.
i HATE having my stuff touched in any way. i hate it when my nipples are touched in any way. i hate when people touch my abdomen area, especially around my belly button. i fucking HATE having my clit or anus touched. basically, that leaves my vagina, which i'm still pretty 'eh' about but it's all that's left, really. pretty sad, isn't it? though i do like intercourse :o
but... yeah. he found it, and i didn't say anything. i didn't have a problem at all. and.. i liked it. i guess some people just don't know how to be gentle? or... touch at all? and i do think it's because he's nervous and scared, otherwise he wouldn't be so gentle, but it was awesome. i really liked it.
but then my mom called. so.... everything came to a halt, and after the phone call, we just laid around for the rest of the time.